Thursday, September 30, 2010

Blog Entry 1.3: Music (Beethoven) by Baudelaire

MUSIC
(Beethoven)
by: Charles Baudelaire
MUSIC doth uplift me like a sea
Towards my planet pale,
Then through dark fogs or heaven's infinity
I lift my wandering sail.
 
With breast advanced, drinking the winds that flee,
And through the cordage wail,
I mount the hurrying waves night hides from me
Beneath her sombre veil.
 
I feel the tremblings of all passions known
To ships before the breeze;
Cradled by gentle winds, or tempest-blown
 
I pass the abysmal seas
That are, when calm, the mirror level and fair
Of my despair!

One of the greatest French poets of the XIX century, Charles Baudelaire is often called "the father of modern criticism," who shocked his contemporaries with his visions of lust and decay. Baudelaire had a deep influence on a generation of poets in the late XIXth century, coming into vogue at a time when "art for art's sake" was a dogma [2]. Baudelaire lived a stereotypical life of a bohemian, decadent artist. I imagine him with a glass of absinthe, smoking his pipe full of opium, in the company of doubtful women, enjoying refined sensual and aesthetical pleasures. His poetry received much criticism for his satanistic moods, his controversial and sinful nature, for promoting drug-induced states of mind and his attitude to women.  I chose his poem Music (Beethoven), one of his more innocent verses, for an incredible parallel between the power of music and the force of nature. 

Baudelaire’s Music is highly symbolic: he uses multiple allegories to describe the feelings, produced by Beethoven’s music, comparing it with sea at different weather. The poet uses symbols as images which take on an expanded function within the poem [4]. The symbols I managed to find in the poem are listed below:

Symbols
Denotation
Connotation
Sea
The body of water
Unlimited, absolute, unconscious, emotional, overwhelming; new perspective and positive outlook [1]
Uplift
Lift up from the surface
Elate: fill with high spirits; fill with optimism; take smb’s breath away, carry away
Planet pale
Moon
Author’s dream, super ego (moon regulates sea’s ebb and flow)
Dark fogs
Fog, mist
Mysterious, unknown, hard to see, heavy
Heaven’s infinity
Transparent skies
Clear, precise, crisp, safe
Sail
The sails of a ship or boat
To be in control, free; overcome life difficulties [1]
Sailor
Who leads the ship
Adventure, freedom, exploration, readiness to venture off into deeper waters
With breast advanced
Arched, curved, bent; resembling the sail
Proud; author’s heart is emphasized – he’s at the peak of his emotions
Drinking the winds
Breathing through mouth
Taking a mouthful, almost choke, overwhelming sensation
Cordage
The ropes in the rigging of a ship [3]
Trapped, tied up, cannot get out
Wail
A cry of pain, grief or anger
Squeaking of the cordage warns: danger
To mount the wave
Climb, get on top
Mount waves refers to their enormous size; peak of excitement
Sombre veil
Dark cloth
Cover, hide in the shadow, darkness, gloom, fear of the unknown
Trembling
Shake from cold, fear or excitement
Resonating with the nature, overwhelmed by emotions
Cradled
Put in the baby cradle
At peace, at home, calm and safe, protected
Abysmal seas
Immeasurably deep or great
Hopelessly bad, severe
Mirror level
Firm straight reflective surface
Beginning, source, ambiguous nature

From the first lines of the poem we find out that the music of Beethoven sets the poet on a spiritual journey, fills him up with emotion, lifts him up and carries him away, makes him forgive himself and find himself in his imaginary world, reaching out for his dream. Comparing the music to the sea, he touches upon the deep, sensual, subconscious nature of personal experience of sounds of music.

In the second stanza the author describes his overwhelming excitement – fast, rapid, strong feeling - comparing it to the sailing at full wind. “Cordage wail”, “waves night hides from me”, “her somber veil” warn us of the upcoming dangers. The unknown, the mysterious are so attractive for the poet, that he feels trapped in the emotion, magnetized by the dark of the depths.

The third stanza sums up the duality of the emotion – fear combines with peace, “gentle winds” vs “tempest blown” are equally exciting and dangerous (the contrast is paired up with one from the first stanza – “through dark fogs or heaven's infinity”). “All passions known to ships before the breeze” reminds me of the dreadful danger of the dead calm, and this emotion is fortified by the following stanza, where the poet recalls “the mirror level … of my despair”. The sea, quiet and friendly, flat, like a mirror, is even more dangerous than during the storm: it’s much easier to drown when the sail cannot catch wind, and the poet is left in desperate anticipation of the unavoidability of the end.

I really enjoy the descriptive power of this poem. I love classical music, Beethoven and Brahms being ones of my favorite composers, and very often a listen to a classical record leaves me overwhelmed and speechless, just like the author. Highly dramatic, high-pitched, intense rhythms morph into quiet and peaceful interludes, the feelings overlap and transform, become one solid clot of exclaimed emotion. Pleasure and pain combine and make me feel alive.


Works Sited:
1.      http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/s.htm
2.      http://www.kirjasto.sci.fi/baudelai.htm
3.      http://www.thefreedictionary.com/
4.      http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Baudelaire

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Entry 1.2: Internet Research

-- My love, for you I'd do anything, but PLEASE don't ask me to go watch a horror film in 3D! (from a conversation with my boyfriend)
My first and last horror film was The Nightmare on Elk Street, and it kept giving me nightmares for a decade to follow. I still remember how blood would run cold: I'd freeze in terror, I felt the crystallised fear crawling up my spine. I still remember hoe fear feels in the muscles around my eyes. And the last thing i want is to experience it again..
If i think of supernatural creatures, I could probably deal with gods - not boring and strict christian orthodox god, who looked even more weird following the atheistic soviet past of the area where i got to grow up,
not mentioning the wicked pope who comes along with him


more like the diverse and parti-colored crowd of gods of ancient civilizations, such as Greek pantheon

or Indian, or Egyptian..
I enjoy the Greek divine cynicism, bad-assness, and obvious humanly sinful nature, including, but not limited to, addictive habits (Dionisios)
Indian gods are way less bad ass, but very wise and associate in my mind with infinite tolerance, blurred visions, and an animal creature, cross breed between elephant (Ganesh) and a cow (Indian sacred animal).

Egyptian gods are aggressive, bloody hungry and very bossy.


UFOs and aliens is another sphere of my intent interest. ET, call home!
Extraterrestrial, these creatures are cute, totally inhumane, even in that they are so intelligent, wise, and well-natured. Ugly, but how stylish (or, better say, well designed) they are so much more technologically savvy than the earthians, that it doesn't take them long to figure out all about shallow human business, and they leave soon, disappointed, in search for more exciting civilizations...

In less sophisticated peasant folklore, widely known as fairytales, i tend to like those Know-it-all-jack-of-all-trades-wise-panties guys: they seem to be pretty down to Earth and I enjoy their simple lovely humor, that makes you rather kindly smile than burst out laughing...They are Robin Hoods of some sort, in that they help regular petty people to fight against oppressive kings, but less dramatic, I would say. They are kind of like magicians, but without diploma, self-taught. Magicians I don't like, I think they have attitude. I also don't like mermaids. I think they have fishy breath and curse dirty, like fishermen. I do like alchemists for the wise pick of trade (turning copper into gold) and ability to keep secrets.

Did I mention that I have a secret thing for witch craft, especially the fancy witch carnival from the movie Four Rooms.
My favorite book of mysticism would be "Master and Margarita" by M.Bulgakov. In this novel the irresistibly attractive Satan (Voland) picks Moscow as the city for the upcoming witch carnival and honors Margarita to be the hostess of the devil reunion. Voland is escorted by a lovely bunch of mystic characters, including Begemot, the oversized black cat who could talk, but only after a shot of vodka.

If you haven't read it yet, i highly recommend it!

Meow!


The links:
1. http://besedka.info/viewtopic.php?t=1920
2. http://media.photobucket.com/image/the%20god%20father%20religion/fwaahhh/religion_awkward.jpg
3. http://www.adherents.com/lit/comics/images/WonderWoman_gods_big.jpg
4. https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEggJbwpdMnATFbpnz_3eLxLv4EEu1nJbuh7-00SamurDG-44XpfpXRmh_EB-4kwB-PzQrZJFzQjWM09pz7r2JMCTJ1Ob3t97HtjNh1zNTyh8vaVmtfPh3doMTxDZU-0McJVf_GMwJugoZ4/s400/Dionisios.JPG
5. http://www.telugubhakti.com/TELUGUPAGES/Pdfs/Ganesh/Ganesh.jpg
6. https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6PiNWC5zpI13vFb3umL5ENFJZsNJq6lZ91vpbnSJ0j-jQzI-pL94SZSTKuFUUGvH4WpYe096eaGvfHhwTObHIbW4bLfFjADudrQbgGALb0UARnOioKIbejetcyUUFDt_RD7zmqPJRpcc/s320/cow-gomatha_vishnu.gif
7. http://www.exoticfotos.com/images/gods.jpg
8. http://www.madisonavenuejournal.com/images/et-16.png
9. http://unrealitymag.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/12/four1.jpg
10. http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/41nNXo1vwvL.jpg

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Hello. My name is Era and I am a writer with reader phobia.

When I neither read or write, I talk. I talk a lot, I'm full of stories, i find communications to be my strongest feature. But once i sit down to write, i tend to confide to the paper what i can not pronounce with voice, what i can not share with close people, something deeply personal and confidential. I enjoy writing process, letters gradually filling up the paper, thoughts untangle, become linear, dilemmas solve themselves elegantly. Many friends have been very curious about my writing, asking me to send them a few samples, imagining that my writing should be even more sophisticated and better organised than my stories. I get confused, i turn red, and mumble something inarticulate in response: yes, i hate it when people remind me of my Achilles heal, remind me that i am a writer with reader phobia.
In the car going to the desert of Nevada, for Burning man festival, Brian was telling me about Black Rock Desert as a highly magical place, where all dreams come true. "It is always good to ask desert for something. If you have a moral quest, a creative block, if you lack something in your life, verbalize it in your mind, and make sure by the end of the burning week you will have it" - that was so tough to believe! But - yes! - your writer with reader phobia did start her book on the second day of burning.. As it will progress, i will let you know.. :)